Questionnant Je

As I sit down at the computer at long last, the thought occurs to me that I'm starting to get caught up in a swirling torrent of busy studying and assignments and schoolwork.  What is keeping me from losing myself in the hustle and bustle?  I have friends that get me by, ones who share my same interests, but wouldn't they change me rather than keep me from changing?   I can feel myself starting to mature under pressure, but I'm still my odd creative little self.

  Maybe I'm not supposed to change?  I often hear things like " during your teenage years you often go through a lot of changes".  I do realize that this mostly applies to your body, but it applies to your mindset too right?  Strange thoughts like these seem to be going through my head lately.  I find myself looking at other people and comparing myself ( though in a good way, mind you).   Who exactly am I?  How do other people view me?  Where am I going?  These are questions I can't answer very easily either.  The only thing I can think is that I have to leave these answers up to God and trust that his plan for me is a solid one.

Mon Dessin

    The thought in my head as I begin to type is how Feline Pine is funny because it rhymes. This shows how convoluted my train of thought is. Anyways, as you may have noticed, my blog has been redesigned to ensure that my graphics are up to par with my HTML savvy mother's. It may interest you all to know that I'm typing this while I have a fever. Let me tell you all: FEVERS ARE NOT A GOOD THING. I'm sure anyone who has ever had one will agree with me. The only benefit is not having to go to school.

Préoccupation

There's nothing quite like that little ball of dread that gathers in your stomach before you meet your doom ( for me, my doom happens to be the Latin test this Tuesday. It also doesn't help that the day before the test all we're doing is watching Hercules. It's like she's trying to keep us from despairing. ) Life in public school is treating me fairly well, but there are still times when I think " Well crap, if I was still home schooled I wouldn't have to bust my butt to get this stuff memorized." And it's also interesting how the classes I take that are kind of an extra ( Musicianship and Latin) are the most difficult. My point here? I don't think I have one. Except that I hate having to stuff things in my head over a two week period for a test that I don't want ( or necessarily need) to take. In a stunning display of raw stupidity I also decided to procrastinate my studying. In doing so I learned a very important lesson; studying is done most effectively when it is not the night before. And that concludes my very jumbled post.